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  • illymation
    illymation  3 hari yang lalu +5882

    hi I’m sorry I didn’t do a good job explaining what I meant when it came to self diagnosis - it is valid and I self-dx’d myself for the longest time because my past therapist (who was not educated on autism at all) refused to have me evaluated because she said I “didn’t look autistic.” I saw a new psych who actually studies autism, and I was properly diagnosed. The point I meant to make was: self diagnosing and faking a disability are two different things that I feel become conflated by others who aren’t in our position - because they have access to diagnostics and doctors who listen. And I only “agree” that self diagnosing is wrong if someone is knowingly faking a disability. I used the fake service dog scenario to illustrate this because this is a common issue my friend in the video experiences way too often: people claiming to need a service dog, so they buy a fake vest online, put it on their untrained pet, and that untrained pet will attack and pick fights with my friend’s service dog, sometimes resulting in her and her actual service dog getting denied service places. This is the behavior I’m against- KNOWINGLY faking a disability; not self diagnosing. Thanks!

    • Jovviial
      Jovviial 5 jam yang lalu +1

      I support self diagnosis if it is used as a means to help yourself manage the symptoms you think you have, by applying the strategies people with that disorder use the manage their symptoms to your own lifestyle. where my problem lies with "self-diagnosis" or more accurately the self-diagnosis community, is when they begin claiming definitively they have a disorder and demand they have the /right/ to speak on behalf of that community, often attributing their experiences with a certain disorder which if wrong can cause a lot of misinformation. In my experience the self-diagnsos community with the harmful ideas they are constantly pedaling, despite being the ones constantly parading around how everyone and everything are so ableist and bigoted, are some of the most entitled and ableist people I have ever met. they are constantly policing people on how to identify, if an autistic person prefers to describe their autism as "suffering" from it that is their experience and it is perfectly valid, but a lot of self diagnosed autistics people go out of their way to rudely correct them all the time. they will often push the narrative that all psychologists are bigoted and misinformed on autism (often siting it as an excuse to never get diagnosoed) and they will often say that an official diagnosis is basically useless. without realising it, this idea is incredibly ableist because it bascially invalidates every single autistic person's official diagnosis. I'm tired of self-diagnosed people pushing the idea that autism is "just a neurotype" and that disorder is a "harmful" word. I'm tired of them pushing the idea that stimming is a chosen movement and LOTS of other misinformation about stimming. I'm tired of them pushing the idea that the main reason autistic people struggle is because of neurotypical people amd not the actual disorder itself. I'm tired of them romantizing meltdowns and sensory overloads by performing caricatures of us with fucking POP MUSIC in the background. I am sick of self diagnosed people spreading so so SO much misinformation and being so entitled to think they can just identify as autistic and speak on our behalf.

    • haizuki grey
      haizuki grey 5 jam yang lalu

      I guess that's why your former therapist think you have adhd? Because I heard lot of ppl get these mix up or confused. I personally think self diagnosing is not that great (more like I don't want to encourage that tbh), yes, ppl have trouble getting properly diagnosed is a pain, but I still don't like self diagnosed ,well more like, if a friend of mine saying that they have autism symptoms, I will be aware of it and try my best to understand them, but until they formally get a doctors note, I still won't see them autistic or having autism, it's just potentially. Not all therapist or trained doctors are the best, and yes, patients can understand and know themselves way better,but these kind of stuff I will still trust or believe a medially trained therapist or doctors than normal ppl. I'm glad you got properly diagnosed, the reason after seeing this video and I still have an icky feeling is bc I thought you still haven't got properly diagnosed yet. Since in this video, you mentioned of having a friend with autism, I wonder did you not get properly diagnosed by your friend's doctor or something? Maybe you were diagnosed after finishing this video? Icky feeling as well is probably my more traditional bones, I just don't like self diagnosing, not faking a diagnosed as you said, but a diagnosis to me is really serious, if a person who was not medically trained self diagnosing themselves not saying they are 100% wrong, but if they are wrong, and use wrong methods to try copeing it is scary to me.... BTW, I wonder how service dogs are trained? I guess they also act as emotional support ?

    • korbloxian
      korbloxian 9 jam yang lalu

      sometimes many who are AFAB or POC have to self DX, because the DSM still does not accredit for AFAB people and POC, or both. i am now actually diagnosed professionally. and i only did this after extensive long research for over 2 years, just to have it backed up professionally. not everyone knows why people self DX. autism can be both developmental and neurological, and i have Multiple Sclerosis diagnosed, my brain and central nervous system gets attacked by my immune system, and my neurologist thinks that in itself caused ADHD, and that he thinks i've always had autism, and he can treat both, but he wanted me to go get it diagnosed in the psychiatric department *for insurance reasons,* which i'm still waiting on, so i say self DX, while i am actually DX, it's not formally in-paper yet. i'm already physically disabled, (due to aforementioned MS) and i think the analogy is a good thing, analogies i find myself using a lot just to express things to a more intricate manner. and self DX for things like autism as long as it's in good faith, all we can do is trust in people, we can't read their minds or intention, or what they actually have going on.
      some of us are much harder to even be seen to diagnose, having MS made many psychiatrists for years drop me because they dont know how to handle people like me with multiple sclerosis, when my neurologist said the disease would not affect how i have it. if some wait for a 100% official on paper diagnosis, what do they want us to do? waste money struggling in college while having no explanation for our accommodations? i failed so many classes, and after explaining, i am now getting to where im going to be able to do things like extensions. people shouldn't gatekeep resources that affect nobody else for us to have! i'm already disabled physically, so i'm not taking from anyone else by getting to try to make things work for me in the case of autism.

    • Indigo Wendigo
      Indigo Wendigo 10 jam yang lalu

      Nah, I get this without even actually knowing that much about mental health and political correctness or whatever this is...
      That some people just want some kind of attention even in really shady/petty ways or something, while others look are just simply insecure and unsure about what if any disorders you might have for any given reason(s)...
      I've kind of been here myself for that insecure about. o.O But all I've had is stuff like Autism myself or ADHD, I have no idea if I have more, less, or something different...

    • XenogendersAreRad!
      XenogendersAreRad! 11 jam yang lalu

      I self-diagnosed myself with ADHD and social anxiety after like around a 1 year of research and self-test. Also I think I might be on the spectrum of autism 😅

  • Hopeless Peaches
    Hopeless Peaches 3 hari yang lalu +5987

    I can relate to needing headphones and getting weirded out at specific things. My parents used to keep asking why I needed headphones everywhere I went, but that's because they didn't see that when I was alone walking the dog, or on the train, the sounds of other people or sounds of rustling really got me upset and wanna escape home OOF.
    I don't know if that means I have autism per say, but I can relate to a good chunk of this video. But I also know I've had untreated depression since I was little, and got a prognosis for ADHD, so as you said: similar symptoms might be baking different types of cake.

    • Cola rat ✨
      Cola rat ✨ 7 jam yang lalu

      Sorry for this monstrosity of an essay but please help?

    • Cola rat ✨
      Cola rat ✨ 7 jam yang lalu

      I don’t need headphones but my brain just kind of stops working if that makes sense when there’s loud noises? (I’m not self diagnosed or actually diagnosed I’m just sharing experiences) I don’t really think anything I just keep walking or sitting and try and cover my ears. I hate doing the dishes because the noise of the dishes clanking together and the gross food that I’m supposed to touch with a sponge. A lot of noises scare me except for people talking. I don’t talk when there’s a lot of noise and I don’t understand the appeal of raves because it’s all just too loud. I have friends and I talk to them a lot but it’s hard to talk to people I don’t know and make new friends without them approaching me. I used to mimic the girls in elementary school when they teased people about being friends with the opposite gender and it got me in trouble the time I did it. I love talking about my interests with friends but I like to keep to myself. I’m so confused right now can someone please PLEASE help in someway or tell me about something useful?

    • Just Another Gaming Youtuber
      Just Another Gaming Youtuber 20 jam yang lalu

      Cake? Where?!

    • PinKitty
      PinKitty Hari Yang lalu

      I would probably benefit from noise canceling headphones but I get very bad headaches when wearing headphones for too long. A similar problem happens with earbuds. If they are secure enough to stay in my ears, I get headaches again.
      Does anyone have any suggestions to work around this?

    • ♡ˢᵗʳᵃʷᵇᵉʳʳʸᵀᵒᵃᵈ♡
      ♡ˢᵗʳᵃʷᵇᵉʳʳʸᵀᵒᵃᵈ♡ Hari Yang lalu

      I don't think I have autism, I'm almost 100% positive, but there's definitely noises I just- can't, like I'll physically have to pull away it's so uncomfortable,
      Like the feeling of nails touching cardboard

  • 𝚂 𝚊 𝚕 𝚎 𝚖   ☹︎
    𝚂 𝚊 𝚕 𝚎 𝚖 ☹︎ Hari Yang lalu +412

    “It felt like the be yourself quote applied to everyone but me.”
    Hits way to close to home. Over the years I’ve been very selective about sharing my interests with people because whenever I went on long rants they’d ignore me or tell me that I was annoying. I’ve only ever opened up to one close friend, who I’m still in contact with even though they moved 3 years ago. I just feel like there’s no safe space for me to express my feelings and ideas. There’s certain thing I know I can’t say because I’m me. Like, if i said a certain joke they wouldn’t laugh, they’d just give me a polite smile. If my friend said that joke, everyone would act like it was the funniest thing in the world.
    Edit: also the ‘You don’t seem autistic.’ Reminded me of an experience. I let slip that my brother was autistic (something that still haunts me to this day) and we also had an autistic kid in our class. He was closer to what people view as typically autistic, he had trouble talking and doing certain things. One of my friends immediately got it into their head that my brother was like that kid and asked about it. The others, who had met my brother, were pretty shocked (which I don’t blame them for). They all said stuff like; ‘Wait, hold up! He acts so normal, not like (insert kid in our class’s name)’ ‘Are you lying? But he doesn’t have any trouble with school!’ ‘He was probably diagnosed wrong’
    I was so mad at them but didn’t speak up, because I was afraid. I’ve always been afraid of my friends because I’m if I tell them what I’m really thinking, they’ll hate me.

    • Krissy Diggs
      Krissy Diggs 5 jam yang lalu

      Extremely relatable

    • Cola rat ✨
      Cola rat ✨ 6 jam yang lalu

      YES

    • 𝚂 𝚊 𝚕 𝚎 𝚖   ☹︎
      𝚂 𝚊 𝚕 𝚎 𝚖 ☹︎ 9 jam yang lalu +1

      @Madison M. i think I’m slowly starting to become friends with people who get more as well, but I don’t really know. Everything’s been super uncertain lately

    • Madison M.
      Madison M. 20 jam yang lalu +2

      This is hitting close to home. I eventually found people who got me. A lot of the people I really connected recently have been getting diagnosed with autism to be honest. Those who aren't are already nuerodivergent on some level. The closest friends I've ever had keep getting diagnosed recently.

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  • Nick Chambers
    Nick Chambers Hari Yang lalu +145

    I loved the owl house references! And thank you for bringing up the “it’s not just young white boys” part. It ignores so many other people, especially when someone’s looking to be diagnosed as an adult. Our needs change as we grow, and an adult who has trouble with socializing would be able to mask or adapt more than, say, a six year old. Our struggles still exist, they’re just sometimes harder to see

    • Anvi
      Anvi 4 jam yang lalu

      I do too lol. Did you see the latest episode? I saw young Eda somewhere in this video

    • Cola rat ✨
      Cola rat ✨ 6 jam yang lalu

      I love the Owl House

  • 🎗 ordinary extraordinary 🎗

    i heard someone tell a girl with asd, “well, you don’t ACT autistic” and she just went, “Oh sorry! One second.” and then started hitting her head while listing off train facts. 10/10 response

  • Rhexx Greymane
    Rhexx Greymane 20 jam yang lalu +16

    As someone who is autistic and deal with everything mentioned here, thank you so much for explaining things I cant put into words because explaining anything about myself is an absolute nightmare and my brain completely forgets how to organize any information. So, i usually tell people to "specify what they want to know" in order to give a reply but for anyone completely ignorant (not in a bad way) to autism has no idea where to start. Now I can just link this instead!

  • Whatever
    Whatever 3 hari yang lalu +9847

    Important note. The things that people see as autistic and are the main diagnostic criteria are the things that happen when autistic people are overwhelmed and unhappy. Those "symptoms" go away when they are able to communicate, cope, and are happy.

    • Snowy
      Snowy 16 jam yang lalu

      this is why it’s so hard to get a diagnosis (when, in my opinion, it shouldn’t need to be a diagnosed thing in the first place). we have to be actively suffering to the point where our reactions are obvious to allistic people in order to get diagnosed, which is absurd.
      the diagnostic criteria are based off of what allistic people perceive of a specific demographic of autistic people, when they’re *suffering*. they ignore experiences from the autistic people’s points of view.

    • Pumpkin Spice
      Pumpkin Spice 18 jam yang lalu

      Please replace the period after note with a colon.

    • Alex
      Alex 19 jam yang lalu

      So true.

    • Vinny Santorini ;]
      Vinny Santorini ;] Hari Yang lalu

      @person Geez, this is more common than I thought.

  • Dawn Hankins
    Dawn Hankins 23 jam yang lalu +27

    I'm still learning to not mask. Realized I was on the spectrum about a year ago, and a lot of things clicked. I'm positive my father has more symptoms then I do, and the realization really helped us connect. He only talks about and cares about sports, I've gotten more involved in sport subjects and we have much longer conversations.
    The service dog thing holds a special place in my heart. My bestie has one for mobility support, and she passes out randomly. All 3 have been attacked by another 'service dog' it really amped up her anxiety. She no longer goes to the store without an able bodied person to create a wall/take over because she can't handle the confrontation. Please leave your untrained dogs at home! We love our dogs, but she needs hers to live a semi normal life.

  • cqvio doli
    cqvio doli Hari Yang lalu +17

    Can we just appreciate how Illymation has been through so much, yet gotten so far. Also, I love here content so much! She is a big role model for me.

  • SkywayPlayz
    SkywayPlayz Hari Yang lalu +14

    Honestly, while Im not autistic, The "Be yourself quote applied to everyone *but me*" hit me hard. Everyone at my school would make fun of my interests.
    If I spoke about cats too much, they'd call me a furry (Which is confusing. What do they have against furries?)
    If I spoke about a game I liked, they'd call the game a furry game (Which again is confusing)
    And they call me a horse girl. (I have asked many times, what is a horsegirl!?)
    Its like I can't do or say anything that is what *i* enjoy without getting bullied for it.
    (Totally unrelated, but
    6:23
    EEDAAAAA! (background)
    (Owl House))

    • Anvi
      Anvi 4 jam yang lalu

      YASSSS I saw eda too! Honestly people just use “furry” to refer to anything bad now

  • nudnik_ o
    nudnik_ o 21 jam yang lalu +11

    I have two siblings with autism, and I can say that a lot of the things in this video are accurate to what I've observed about them. Despite the fact they share the same disorder, they could not be more different. One is very confident and loud, likes to communicate, likes to joke, goof around, and the other is timid and quiet, the purest soul you'll ever meet. They have both have completely different interests and views of the world, so keep in mind that if you're researching on autism, be mindful that they are people too, with different interests, hobbies, things they're good at and things they aren't. So, what was stated at the beginning of the video, about how you can get have pasta but several different forms of it, is a really good way of describing it.

  • Vixy
    Vixy 2 hari yang lalu +1018

    “It’s like the *be yourself* quote applied to everyone but me”
    Honestly that hit very close to home. I’ve always been labled as annoying and I never understood alot of things the way other people did, I get called stupid and/or slow for not understanding questions or following conversations properly/differently. I always thought maybe I had some sort of mental problem with me. Maybe I do, I don’t know. I’ve never been diagnosed with anything (yet)

    • Isaiah Jankowski
      Isaiah Jankowski Hari Yang lalu +1

      @milk n oreos dosent hurt to check! :)

    • phillycheesesteak
      phillycheesesteak Hari Yang lalu

      Same

    • v1ctor1a_4444
      v1ctor1a_4444 Hari Yang lalu +2

      relate 100%. all anyone ever says to me is "you're so annoying, just shut up"
      i have yet to be diagnosed but am on a waiting list

    • JBoxy
      JBoxy Hari Yang lalu

      @LyfetheLeaf ya, if your personalities just don't line up, thats fine, you shouldn't change just for them.

    • Vixy
      Vixy Hari Yang lalu +3

      @Nooby ツ Ok, then just move on?? Nobody forced you to read this, let alone reply.

  • Chips The Cat
    Chips The Cat Hari Yang lalu +5

    My brother has autism, and this is a very good explanation of autism. He gets bullied at school and soon is going to middle school. I’m glad you are spreading the word of what autism actually is.

  • RubyDaLynx
    RubyDaLynx Hari Yang lalu +13

    I always thought I had Misophonia, but after doing some research, it might just be a case of Autism. My hearing is EXTREMELY sensitive, and I get triggered by noises that aren't often considered as annoying. Of course I always get mocked, even by my parents, so I'm glad I'm not crazy at least

  • Lops1dedSqu1d
    Lops1dedSqu1d Hari Yang lalu +10

    One of my friends recently mentioned to me that she thinks I might have some form of autism and she had me do a small assessment as in ‘Hey! You might have autism you should get checked out!’ And I scored a 101 and if you receive a grade above 65 it’s likely you have some form of autism but I’m scared to get checked out because of the stigma around it.

    • Camila Barrera
      Camila Barrera Hari Yang lalu +2

      same but I got 81, and Im scared to look like an hypochondriac

  • ~Willow~
    ~Willow~ 23 jam yang lalu +4

    Honestly this has really helped me. I’ve never thought about it before, but the more I hear about your and other peoples symptoms the more I think I might have autism. I won’t go around saying I do unless I get a diagnosis of course, but now I have an idea on why I’ve acted a certain way my whole life. Thanks for the help, and I love when you showed Owl House characters. That’s my favorite show!!! :D. Well thanks for reading, have a great day/night everyone, stay safe, and God bless. :) ❤️✝️❤️

  • abelina sabrina
    abelina sabrina 3 hari yang lalu +702

    Love you little lady ❤️

    • Quibble 1234
      Quibble 1234 2 hari yang lalu +2

      @Cheese Biscuits but add a third, forms disorder and chaos.

    • Cheese Biscuits
      Cheese Biscuits 2 hari yang lalu +3

      @Alex .G great minds think alike.

    • Alex .G
      Alex .G 2 hari yang lalu +3

      @Cheese Biscuits that’s exactly what I would have said!

    • Cheese Biscuits
      Cheese Biscuits 2 hari yang lalu +5

      Why are there no replies here.
      Welp, now there are, whoop Dee doo.

  • ꒰ ˊᗜˋ kkumabuddy!! ୨୧ ꒱

    When I was around the age of seven I tried to use the saying “be yourself” and I got bullied, I was really depressed and I felt that it was exactly correct for everyone but me. I also felt like there was something wrong with me. I have not been diagnosed with autism but my parents have always been telling me that I’m just overreacting or trying to be trendy. This is how my brain works and how it always has. I have sensory issues and my parents would always dismiss them and tell me how I was being like an idiot.

  • SteveTheBigToe
    SteveTheBigToe 13 jam yang lalu +3

    Hey Illy, if you're seeing this, I just want you to know I'm glad and that you're not alone! As a thirteen-year-old female, I can say that I've been bullied for absolutely no reason, I always throw up trying to do the dishes too, I don't like loud noises and just shut down when I try to forget about it, I am always the one weird kid that would but into all the conversations, I can't focus ever, and I can never look at people in the eyes without feeling uncomfortable. I could never fit in, and never wanted to fit in so I would just start wearing hoodies often and cussing and not being the nicest just to act like the people around me, but also being extremely kind to other people who were nice people too. I started listening to music I hated and just forgot who I was. I even at one point tried to change my name because everyone else was doing it, so I just never fit in. I eventually tried just not being friends with anyone else and tried to be an introvert (even though I'm an extrovert) but never could and just ended up talking to people and just started a loop. I ended up recently being diagnosed with ADHD (Awesome disorder hot dog!) so I know where you're coming from.

  • King Midas
    King Midas Hari Yang lalu +5

    I just found this channel in and I like being able to relate with someone who had a similar experience with autism. My family kinda treated me differently when I was diagnosed with autism and it still messes with me. Glad to know people like you are out here on the internet :D

  • Emza5694
    Emza5694 Hari Yang lalu +5

    I loved this video Illy! I was only diagnosed with Autism almost 2 years ago and my life has been so much better knowing I have it. When I found out, all these light bulbs went off about myself and my memories and it all suddenly made sense!
    Welcome to the community! It's so wonderful to have someone like you here ❤️

  • The Music Decomposer
    The Music Decomposer 3 hari yang lalu +693

    6:18 “Pfft, you’re not autistic. Why aren’t you playing Roblox and screaming into the microphone? You know, a totally real symptom and not a stereotype.”
    (Yes, it's a joke.)

    • Sanriohub
      Sanriohub 8 jam yang lalu

      @Super Sonic it’s for people who can’t understand tone.

    • L.P.
      L.P. 2 hari yang lalu +5

      @tatis021 tatidd021 what braincells

    • tatis021 tatidd021
      tatis021 tatidd021 3 hari yang lalu +2

      yeah uh i can understand a joke and when somethings literal but this, this just killed my only remaining braincell.

    • Lavender Quartz
      Lavender Quartz 3 hari yang lalu +2

      @Super Sonic pretty sure they’re just projecting

  • LissyFilms
    LissyFilms Hari Yang lalu +4

    This video resonated w/ me so much! I was diagnosed at 2 but people still didn’t believe I was on the spectrum bc I acted “normal” when in truth, I was just very good at mimicking what others said or did 😅 sounds can overwhelm me and over stressing myself can lead to something called “sensory overload” which is where I need to be in a dark, quiet space in order to properly decompress 😖 and I also learned girls specifically had a hard time getting a diagnosis for autism bc the mimicking was so strong and all their other symptoms were easy to confuse w/ other disorders before autism 😅

  • Technilogica 💜
    Technilogica 💜 Hari Yang lalu +5

    i haven't been diagnosed with anything but i relate to almost EVERYTHING you listed as a possible symptom 💀 everything except the jeans and toilet flushing
    i've quite possibly learned something new about myself thanks to your video! awesome job explaining it in a way that makes sense to people who haven't taken any formal med or psych classes! /gen

  • Dinah Karnil
    Dinah Karnil Hari Yang lalu +3

    My sister has atusim, and this video has helped me better understand what it means to be autistic, and how I personally can help her(and others close to me) in certain situations.
    Thank you for making this video, love your content :)

  • Madison M.
    Madison M. 20 jam yang lalu +2

    I feel incredibly seen. A video has never ever made me feel as incredibly seen as this has. You have absolutely no idea for how long I have needed this. The scared 11 to 17 year old me is sobbing tears of joy.
    I had to hear people put down and look down upon autism for so long while being aware I was autistic and coming to terms with it. For so long, every time I heard people use autistic as an insult to mean stupid and incompetent, aware that those were referring to something that I was. They were indirectly calling me stupid and incompetent. It felt like a punch to the gut. I was terrified to tell people I was autistic for years, part of me still is very scared sometimes. I even felt shame at times because people made me feel like I should feel that way. I struggled to find representation and videos like this, I tried, and I found some but not many and not like this.
    You are helping so so so many people with this video. I hope you know the true extent of it. Beyond those just figuring out, those who did know and had to put up with the type of shit that I did, or are currently still trying to find their own self acceptance and confidence in it. This was wonderful! Thank you.
    I am not able to effectively articulate quite how much this means to me and how impactful and important this is, I can't quite do my own feelings and thoughts justice because there are too many right now. I just hope you know.
    I'm not trying to over hype or whatever, I'm being genuine. And I get it, you're just a person and such, just know the impact of this is so important and you did an amazing job.

  • Celia Nunn
    Celia Nunn 10 jam yang lalu

    Honestly, i always felt like my brain was “plugged in backwards” but i was taught at a very young age to “pretend to be normal”. But for me, pretending was hard and made me feel awkward and nervous. So eventually i dropped most of it. I was known as “the weird girl” but i responded with “yea im weird, your point is?”

  • gender.is.a.lie.
    gender.is.a.lie. 14 jam yang lalu

    I honestly can’t believe how much I relate to this- especially the imposter syndrome. your idea of coping with it is honestly amazing and kind of hilarious and I am definitely adapting that into my life lmao

  • SmolCaffeineAddict
    SmolCaffeineAddict 21 jam yang lalu +2

    The amount of times I've been infentalized by people when they know I'm autistic. One of the worst times was by a social worker, I think I was 15 at the time. The social worker had to work with other autistic people, she was with the kids so I think that's why, since I wasn't over 18 at the time, thought that it was okay to talk to me just like she would have interacted with autistic kids.

  • TreekoAce02
    TreekoAce02 Hari Yang lalu +1

    This is reassuring to hear. I have had thoughts of being a content creator on IDclips or twitch off and on and hearing this story of yours was great.

  • Sea Dragon Slayer
    Sea Dragon Slayer Hari Yang lalu +173

    I have ADHD and people think I'm just stupid and say I don't seem like I have ADHD which is very sad and its hard to cope I'm glad she made this video to make this more aware. Thank you Illy.

    • your comrade
      your comrade 9 jam yang lalu

      I mean you probably never talked to anyone about autism.
      Your self diagnosis but did you talk to any other person with adhd to recheck your problems.
      I am just saying I do not have adhd but I still can relate to almost all the points she gave. Because, most introverts face these problem.

    • Oscar Edelson
      Oscar Edelson 12 jam yang lalu

      Same

    • SkittleCrossing
      SkittleCrossing 14 jam yang lalu

      @Cash0311 MSM & more! Oh I'm sorry I have dyslexia and read that as introverted people act suprised. sorry.

    • Cash0311 MSM & more!
      Cash0311 MSM & more! 17 jam yang lalu

      @Whispurr C4t interesting.

  • Madison Bugbear
    Madison Bugbear 20 jam yang lalu +4

    Honestly I'm 20 and I have been more and more recognizing autistic traits in myself. And for the longest time it was just excused as ADHD or anxiety
    I have a destinct memory and still have extream issues with sleeves that end between my elbow and wrist, if it does it has to be very specific fabrics, this also means I can't wear bracelets or watched, even gloves are uncomfortable to the point of me feeling like I can't move my arms from this trex like position
    And I was forced to stop when I was a child because the only way I could describe is was "my wrists need to breath!"
    I feel like this was something my dad should of cared alot more about with every other sign I've shown since I was a little kid but honestly I can't blame him, I have so many different things it's was unlikely I woulda been diagnosed even if someone noticed

  • Pepiika
    Pepiika 13 jam yang lalu +1

    it makes me happy that one of my favorite internet artists is autistic like me!! but it’s so nice to see someone like me :)
    it was also SO obvious with me as a kid, i was also just told “youre being overdramatic”
    This video makes me happy, i was bullied and isolated for 10 years straight. This video explains how i felt as a kid and still feel today sometimes.
    i also have adhd too!!

  • Snowy
    Snowy Hari Yang lalu +1

    it's really nice to see people being open about being autistic in media, thank you for making a video about it ^-^
    i figured out over the past year that i was autistic & i think videos like these would have really helped when i was figuring stuff out!! this is a really nice video and i relate to a lot of what you mentioned in your video

  • Cinnamon Bum
    Cinnamon Bum Hari Yang lalu +2

    A thing that both my boyfriend and I have been talking about is the "tingle". Does anyone else get that? It's this uncomfortable feeling, where you know you HAVE to do or change something, or else you might go insane. My personal example is laying in bed for a longer time without sleeping. Especially as a kid I had this issue, that I had to get up after a while or else would start kicking around and clawing into the sheets, just for this strange feeling/ urge to go away. Crying helped too, to a certain degree. And when it finally does go away, it feels like as if a sponge is being squeezed and everything that has been stuck is finally flowing out. Takes a lot for this to happen tho and is quite exhausting if you have to act normal and/or work.
    This might be an incredibly weird description but I honestly don't know how else to call it other than the "tingle".
    The feeling basically happens when I get irritated, scared, confused, interrupted, plans change suddenly... Such things.
    It's just one of the things we've both been dealing with and I will talk about this and other symptoms I'm experiencing in a few days with my therapist, it would explain so many issues I'm having. Haven't been diagnosed yet but I have the feeling that there is still.. something.
    Great video, very interesting and relateable!! c: Hearing that other people have similar experiences is such a relief!

  • StanDX23
    StanDX23 22 jam yang lalu +1

    This is the best video I've seen in ages, I was diagnosed with autism earlier this year at 14 and I related to absolutely everything in this video, from what you've said about your experience I believe we are on a very similar area on the spectrum, I was also told by teachers how well behaved I was in primary school and finally realise why. “It felt like the be yourself quote applied to everyone but me.” that line just applies to me way too much, all your analogies were really great, I'm going to steal that glasses one because this one guy in my class tells me that I don't have autism because I don't look like it, and he wears glasses so I can use that analogy. Thank you so much I love this video. Have a great day :)

  • Craigory
    Craigory 20 jam yang lalu +1

    Thank you for addressing the issue and validating self diagnosing!!!! I've had extreme symptoms of autism from as early as I can remember. Many of the things were just brushed off as being "quirky" or "shy" or even just "nerdy" but I can assure you it's autism. It's not shy when you copy the speech patterns of everyone you meet, or quirky when you run into a room the second you hear the theme song of your spinterest TV show playing, or nerdy when you write a five page essay about said TV show. I've had people tell me that I have the "good" autism, like no? Just because I can pick up on things quickly in school and exceed the standard or dedicate hours or even days of my time to one specific thing that doesn't mean it's good. Everyday after school I have to spend hours in my room writing or drawing or sleeping because I'm just SO tired from masking. Going places with friends is always a gamble because sometimes I can take all the lights and people and noises, but sometimes I can't. And sometimes I just shut down and they don't notice.
    But yeah, it's really hard having ASD. But some people think that "Since you can do things on your own and you don't bother ME, then you can't be autistic". While yes, I can be independent and not bother you specifically, if you knew me you'd know that I'm not as capable as you may think and I only don't bother you because how I was raised. Sometimes the worst things are the things people can't see. Maybe that's only true in some cases but I digress.
    Thanks for educating on self diagnosing! My younger brother has autism but wasn't diagnosed because during the screening he was "too social" and "too well-behaved". But it's very obvious he's autistic, just with everything I've known him to do his whole life. He may be "self diagnosed" technically, but that is saving him a lot of things, specifically in school, what I went through. I still can't get a diagnosis yet myself (with my sexuality,gender, race, wealth and family situation), but self diagnosing is literally saving me.

  • Alice Warnick
    Alice Warnick 14 jam yang lalu

    i got my official diagnosis a few weeks ago. "be yourself" applying to everyone but yourself hits a lil too close to home lol, that's a great way to describe it.

  • Adaija Packnet
    Adaija Packnet 22 jam yang lalu +1

    This is amazing to see, my daughter is on the spectrum as well and it is nice to see another person on the spectrum I can show my daughter when she’s older to show her she can achieve so much despite her diagnosis.

  • eLL cartoons
    eLL cartoons 3 hari yang lalu +1325

    This video is EVERYTHING. I seriously appreciate you using your platform to bring so much more awareness to us awesome weirdos!!! ❤️🙃🥳 Your toons are the best 😭🙌🏼 P.S. I WILL NEVER DO THE DISHES WITHOUT GLOVES.

    • Diana Shearer
      Diana Shearer Hari Yang lalu

      ELL HELLO

    • TheAnimationNation
      TheAnimationNation 2 hari yang lalu

      ok

    • WingDingfontbro67 Null
      WingDingfontbro67 Null 2 hari yang lalu +2

      Who doesn’t? I dont want crap water in my hands who wants that getting all in their nails and oh god I touched my face because I needed to scratch my nose and now it’s in my face. You can see how this goes down the drain very quickly,

    • Sitharos
      Sitharos 2 hari yang lalu +1

      Hey Ell! Love sweet potato! 😃

  • Xomvoid _aka Luchiru_
    Xomvoid _aka Luchiru_ Hari Yang lalu +2

    When I was younger I had almost all the symptoms besides being overly sensitive to sounds a feelings, so my brother suggested I might be autistic. I'm glad I looked into it though :)

  • Creea101
    Creea101 Hari Yang lalu +1

    Hi Illy! I just wanted to say thank you so much for this animation! I went through an incredibly rough time as a child and a teenager because of several misdiagnoses. Basically, I was told I was bipolar at age 9-10 and went on medication that didn't work for years, then they were like "oh she has BPD" and took me off of everything cold turkey. When THAT diagnosis got disproven, my last psychiatrist slapped down a diagnosis of Reactive Attachment Disorder and promptly retired. It was on my 25th birthday, well after being weaned off my last medication, that I was told that I had been diagnosed with ADHD at around 7 and THEY DISREGUARDED THAT DIAGNOSIS WHEN THE FIRST MEDICATION DIDN'T WORK. Do you know how incredibly frustrating it was for me to Google the symptoms of ADHD and realize that everything, literally EVERYTHING, that was wrong with me during those years COULD BE EXPLAINED BY ADHD? I'm 29 now and I'm still angry with the doctors who misdiagnosed me and gave me all the wrong medications. I'm too afraid to go to a psychiatrist to get formally diagnosed with it because of all of the trauma I experienced going in and out of psychiatric facilities and the ways I've been treated by doctors on the outside. Like you, I feel like I'm also on the spectrum due to various factors, but I can't bring myself to seek professional opinions anymore. I already have enough trouble getting doctors to listen to me about my autoinflammatory disorder and get a decent level of respect. I commend you for being able to talk to a psychiatrist and seek the answers you need.

  • hydralisk98
    hydralisk98 19 jam yang lalu

    That goes directly to my heart as a transfeminine aspie. Also I don't know how but in my feeds in the last few years, lots of people I love to consume content from came out, often about either autism or LGBTQ+. And I love every second of this wholesome generational upbringing. Stay awesome and take care everybody here. ^*^

  • Ellia Forsyth
    Ellia Forsyth Hari Yang lalu +2

    I like how you mentioned the stereotypical special interest of trains. I like to think of myself as a train because as an autistic girl I was a little awkward and guys didn’t really like me however now that I’m an adult multiple autistic guys have liked me. I’m a thing autistic guys like. I’m a train.

  • AnJelloProductions
    AnJelloProductions 3 hari yang lalu +532

    I love how “non traditional” topics are being talked about by Illy. I definitely find these videos more personal and really helps those who can compare. This SHOULD be normal conversations.
    Amazing video and thank you for using your platform as a bigger voice for those who cannot!

  • Megan Bravo
    Megan Bravo 16 jam yang lalu

    i really related to the entirety of this video. I have been diagnosed with ADD/ADHD for about 10 years and I have always been nervous to talk to my psychiatrist about it. I know that if I was, it would probably be very low on the spectrum but either way, I think you’ve helped me realize I shouldn’t be embarrassed to at least ask about it! Thanks :))

  • Erin Bennett
    Erin Bennett 17 jam yang lalu

    it makes me so so happy to see content creators I look up to/admire sharing their experience as a fellow autistic individual especial those that are also women (such as myself :)) or those who grew up as a girl. the representation warms my heart.

  • Charlotte Twaddle
    Charlotte Twaddle 15 jam yang lalu

    OH MY GOSH THANK YOU SO MUCH ILLY!!
    I’m autistic always have been always will be I’m so happy that we’re starting to get representation and I’m so happy that you are taking care of yourself and making the necessary adjustments to your environment that help you please keep making amazing content and being your awesome self

  • Jackattacktron1000
    Jackattacktron1000 19 jam yang lalu

    Thank you so much for making I really needed to hear this and know its ok to be who you are cause for a long time I thought being autistic was being dumb and I thought i was dumb but I know now thats not the case i am who i am and I’ve had loving friends and family and teachers always except me for me.

  • Owen Lewis
    Owen Lewis 3 hari yang lalu +396

    For anyone who needs to hear this, ADHD and autism have a surprising amount of overlaps: sensory issues, lack of focus, hyper focus, issues with socialization, and so much more. If you researched autism and thought “well, it kinda fits me, but not perfectly” I would recommend looking into ADHD, because that may be what’s up.

    • Keniko RB
      Keniko RB 12 jam yang lalu

      You can also have both!

    • The Supernatural house
      The Supernatural house 3 hari yang lalu +2

      @Leah thank you! And yes, I know that add is an outdated term I just didn't know what else to call it-
      But thanks, I ought try again to explain to my mom, but idk
      My friend also has adhd, and he says I definitely seem like I have it; might try to ask a teacher or just wait until I can do it myself, idk

    • Leah
      Leah 3 hari yang lalu +2

      @The Supernatural house ADD is actually not considered a diagnosis anymore- it all falls under the umbrella term of "ADHD" and you can have either hyperactive or inattentive type or a mix of both! So what you're describing is likely inattentive type ADHD 😊 I hope you can convince someone to have you tested if you think theres something up because I went without a diagnosis for 21 years and it would've been amazing to know when I was younger- good luck!

    • Wyte Chinpira
      Wyte Chinpira 3 hari yang lalu

      @shrekisstillinswamp2424 ADHD and Autism sure do share alot of the same symptoms too even though they aren't the same

  • Kris Howlter
    Kris Howlter 22 jam yang lalu

    I relate to almost all of this video. I was diagnosed pretty young. Like at my first symptom , I was sent to a psychologist, evaluated and and diagnosed with autism. it made it interesting having to explain why I jump at the sound of an alarm or shut down in loud environments. the combination of unmedicated ADHD and autism made for a fun combo for my teachers to deal with though.

  • Skyler
    Skyler Hari Yang lalu

    OMG. I have autism and ADHD too. And knowing that my favorite IDclips animator has the same symptoms of autism as I do! And having everything that happened to you also happened to me, and I always feel alone even though I know that I'm not. I get distracted all the time especially if I see a cat or dog

  • Nootles and Bootles
    Nootles and Bootles Hari Yang lalu

    It’s interesting to see the similarities between autism and adhd. Thanks for making this video Lily! :3💖

  • CartoonCatGirl
    CartoonCatGirl 14 jam yang lalu

    This video was awesome, especially since I related to a lot of things. My mom noticed autistic traits in me when I was about 4, she'd tell me how I would rather have my arm cut off than make eye contact or how people would shout my name and I was just in my own world, the latter still goes on. I was often in special ed classes or in tutoring in elementary school, also it was hard to tell if other kids were my friends or if they just wanted to take advantage of me. It even occurred in college, which is why I'm not really interested in socializing despite my mother wanting me to be social.
    To this day, I still can't stand loud noises, especially automatic toilets (the ones at the airport are the worst). I also can't stand the texture of certain foods like cheeseburgers and scalloped potatoes. Smells especially get to me, if I've been somewhere that smells bad to me, I feel the need to shower ASAP. For the longest time, these things made it difficult to get me a good permanent job. Luckily I've found one that actually treats me right and even works with me to work things out. Also got an apartment and a car and a cat.
    Sorry that this is long or boring, but just thought I'd share some things.

  • Carley Osburn
    Carley Osburn 3 hari yang lalu +124

    As an autistic female myself, this made me feel heard in a way that I can’t quite explain. Thank you for sharing your experiences, Ilyssa.

    • Cody Hines
      Cody Hines 3 hari yang lalu

      I hope you have a good life

  • Madi Easter
    Madi Easter 22 jam yang lalu +1

    I’m so glad to hear that I’m not the only who can’t stand the feeling of wearing jeans. Ever since I was a kid (I’m 14, a freshmen in high school now) I couldn’t stand to be in jeans and my mom has only just recently accepted that I just have a thing with the feeling of certain clothes.

  • Laura Lindhardt
    Laura Lindhardt Hari Yang lalu +1

    I was diagnosed at 18, and it was like everything just made sense suddenly. I finally understood what was "wrong" with me and that i wasn't just weird or shy or awkward. I learned about autism and how to handle it and yea i have a lot of memories too of situations where i definitely should have realised i wasnt normal. A lot of memories of times where i completely misunderstood a situation or was taken advantage of because i was naive and didnt know better.

  • rabbithearted
    rabbithearted Hari Yang lalu

    Wow, I had almost the same experiences as you growing up, though I was diagnosed at 13. And I liked the bean brain analogy, the way I always like to put it is that society is a brick wall, there's a brick shaped hole for everyone, but I'm not brick shaped, so I don't fit

  • ZentoChill
    ZentoChill Hari Yang lalu

    Thank you so much Illy, for sharing your story about autism, and how it has affected your life, and your way to cope with it. No diagnose can make you worthless, and we all have a story to tell. Thank you for being you!

  • Kayley IsACow
    Kayley IsACow 2 hari yang lalu +170

    This explains a lot, about me. And the "You don't seem autistic," is so common. I feel you on all of the things that you explained about how you have ASD. I have ADHD and most people are like "you're overacting." I like this video. No,I love it. ❤

    • Kayley IsACow
      Kayley IsACow 20 jam yang lalu

      Wow, yeah I feel ya. It is annoying how people act like they have add and they don't. It is so aggravating to see and hear.

    • MaxGaming
      MaxGaming Hari Yang lalu +3

      Yeah. For me that usually comes up when I’m doing something I don’t even realize, or there might be something overwhelming me that’s fine to everyone else. I don’t like using my ADHD as an “excuse”, but sometimes it’s an actual reason for something and people just don’t want to put up with the fact that there’s actually a reason I’m not the same as them cause they can’t handle “different” things. It’s so annoying sometimes.

  • Erin Bean
    Erin Bean 13 jam yang lalu

    I really enjoyed this video. I have wondered for years if I might be on the spectrum. I have self-diagnosed Sensory Processing Disorder because I identify with so many of the symptoms shared by SPD and ASD. I'm professionally diagnosed ADD as an adult but it was based only on a questionnaire about my childhood. I'm worried I'll be seen as attention-seeking if I seek a proper diagnoses.

  • Knifey :D
    Knifey :D 9 jam yang lalu

    I pretty much "rediscovered" my ADHD, mostly because my dad thought I would somehow grow out of it and took away my meds. It had helped me with "whats wrong with me" ordeal. For the longest time while being abused in a toxic household I thought I was pretty much useless. I was told that I'm autistic by my dad's ex wife, but nothing was done and it was kind of a weapon against me. I have been having crisis after crisis on whether I have ASD as well, thinking that, for some reason, my abuse experience is invalid and no one would believe me.
    I started researching and researching, and I feel that I may in fact have autism along with ADHD, and it would make more sense as I have so many sensory problems and trouble talking to people. I was told that I was just shy, and well, dramatic. I have misophonia, and one of my sound triggers is the "calming" sound of an acoustic guitar. As silly as that sounds, it kinda makes it hard for me when it comes to socializing sometimes; I live in a city where a lot of people listen to country music, which has that specific sound. I feel guilt whenever I want to leave the area as it kinda makes me go to a fight or flight response. People would obviously give me weird looks if I were to try to explain it.
    This video literally made me cry. I thought I am somehow faking it or misunderstanding myself. I related to so much of what was stated in the video. I had pretended to be "normal" for so long that I had forgotten who I even was, and it took me the 2020's lockdown to really think about a lot of things. Sometimes I just get to the point where I don't pay attention to anything, including to myself. As self-diagnosing is completely valid, I would prefer finding a psychiatrist soon since I would know for sure personally. I talked to a friend and they said that they wouldn't be surprised if I was autistic.
    Sorry for this whole essay, but thank you so much for making this video. It made me so much better about myself and it made me feel valid.

  • belugawhales
    belugawhales 5 jam yang lalu

    Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I'm almost certain I'm autistic, and also working on trying to accept myself, and that I'm not broken, and seeing people I've loved for ages talk about their experiences and say it's ok really helps. So thanks, for just being really cool and showing myself and probably a lot more people that it's ok to be different.

  • Tralfaz
    Tralfaz 15 jam yang lalu

    I'm a young adult with ADHD and I have been having so much trouble adjusting to non-student life/pandemic life. This really made me feel better to watch.

  • Casey's Corner
    Casey's Corner 3 hari yang lalu +207

    This video is so well done, as someone who is AFAB and POC it's insanely hard for me to go about getting a diagnosis. When I was in seventh grade, my mom took me to get tested and even though the doctor said I met all the diagnostic criteria, he refused to diagnose me because it "didn't effect" me. However, if I go through a list of things we talked about, ie: I hated loud toilets with a passion and would cry if I had to deal with them, I loved choir but hated concerts because the band was always so loud it hurt my ears, I never went anywhere without wearing a giant puffy coat. It becomes pretty clear that it did effect me, and the doctor couldn't even just not diagnose me with anything because once again, I met all the criteria. Since then I've had a diagnosis of SPCD (social pragmatic communication disorder) and I've been trying to figure out how to go about actually getting a proper diagnosis, because my behaviors and symptoms are clearly much more than I've been diagnosed.

    • Waffle_icecream
      Waffle_icecream 3 hari yang lalu

      Change that from “poc” to pogs

    • sassycourt 25
      sassycourt 25 3 hari yang lalu +5

      You should definitely look into a new doctor, that's such a racist mindset, but there are a lot of great doctors. Even if it may take awhile you will find a good doctor that can help you.

    • JJAA //JoyJoyArtist
      JJAA //JoyJoyArtist 3 hari yang lalu +9

      I can't believe that doctor. That's such a racist mindset, hopefully someday soon you'll find one that understands you better and cares.

  • Spike
    Spike 5 jam yang lalu

    I've been diagnosed with ADHD since I was a little kid but lately, since I decided to look more into my neurodivergancy, and talking to other autistic people, I've been thinking autism may be a fit to me as well. I know traits can overlap between the disorders, but some of the things I experience add up to just the autism spectrum as well.

  • MumboJ
    MumboJ 17 jam yang lalu +1

    This video hits HARD, but in a good way. Thank you so much for making it! ^_^
    Curiously, my current situation is somewhat inverted, since I finally got my diagnosis for Autism but I also strongly suspect an ADHD component.

  • Cycling addict
    Cycling addict 19 jam yang lalu +1

    Thanks for opening up! You’re really helping a lot of people😁

  • Mankind’s Bad Habit
    Mankind’s Bad Habit 20 jam yang lalu +2

    I’m not even a few minutes into this video, but I feel so seen. I’ve always hated toilets flushing, bells, sirens, etc. Which was always but odd but the jeans being itchy holy heck I’ve dealt with that since I can remember. Parents always got frustrated with me. It’s just really cool to me to see someone talks about things that I directly relate to. I’ve been thinking about having an appointment set up to look more into Autism. Thank you this was really cool and validating :)

  • Circus Yeet
    Circus Yeet 3 hari yang lalu +403

    A wise Spoctor once said “I want to be normalized, not glorified”
    also this video basically describes me lmao
    Because my school completely ignored my needs, it caused trauma :)
    I had no friends, nobody really liked me, I was angry and violent as a kid so people feared me, teachers outright refused to give me extra help because “we have to treat everyone the exact same” etc. ugh
    Edit: wrote a sentence completely wrong
    I’m over it now but it hurts to think about. Girls with autism don’t get nearly as much help and diagnosis as boys do, since they often learn to mask their behavior to fit in. Swedish psychiatrist Svenny Kopp specializes in the subject…
    Another edit bc I wanna add:
    The whole “ooo everyone must be treated the same” thing looks nice on paper I guess. But in practice all it does is ignore those who NEED extra help because “the other students will be jealous.” Yes, autistic student, you see if we put you in a darker and more quiet room, everyone else has to be in that room too because we have to treat everyone the same!! 9 years of school was like that constantly for me and it literally hasn’t improved whatsoever.
    Only rowdy boys get the help they need while Angry to Quiet girls get no attention at all…

    • no one
      no one Hari Yang lalu +1

      I had a math professor with severe ADHD once tell me he tries to make a world where everyone is treated fairly, not equally, because people have different needs and abilities.

    • Circus Yeet
      Circus Yeet 3 hari yang lalu

      @Cola Creature took em 14 years in my case lmao

    • Circus Yeet
      Circus Yeet 3 hari yang lalu +1

      @bananatheo3 ohh lmao i wrote the wrong thing. I meant they kept saying “we have to treat everyone the same”. Must’ve gotten distracted

    • Manga Mouthful
      Manga Mouthful 3 hari yang lalu +2

      I was a bully when I was younger because people told me it would be cool to do so. It was NOT cool.

    • Emily_Pug
      Emily_Pug 3 hari yang lalu +1

      This Comment basically describes me!

  • CrimsonHedgefox
    CrimsonHedgefox Hari Yang lalu

    I really liked seeing the Sonic kid in this video since Sonic is my special interest.
    Honestly everything you listed lines up with ASD symptoms and I share your frustration with difficulty making friends and fitting in.
    It took me a long time to realize that it’s okay to stand out and this video reminded me that I’m not alone out there and that it’s okay for me to be different.

  • kali rock
    kali rock 10 jam yang lalu

    I was diagnosed with adhd and I learned recently that alot of autism symptoms overlap with adhd. However are 2 separate things. Like she said there are ingredients to this stuff. But I relate so much go this. Especially with masking and I get sensory overload. I've been debating on wearing my earphones out but i fear questioning and feeling out of place so I just shut down😅

  • Blackwolf Isthename
    Blackwolf Isthename 14 jam yang lalu

    My parents both have a few mental disabilities and some of that resulted in my have a lot of anxiety and my little brother having autism, and before getting to see more of other people who are on the on the spectrum, I didn’t realize how much he helped me understand the symptoms.

  • Krissy Rikka
    Krissy Rikka 19 jam yang lalu

    Thank you Illy. I am going through a similar journey and I’m trying my best to take care of my brain and mental health. Thank you for brining light to these situations. And you make me feel seen. ❤️

  • Elizabeth Olson
    Elizabeth Olson 3 hari yang lalu +391

    I relate to literally everything in this video, even the part about not wearing tight jeans because they're itchy and wayyy too distracting. My mom knew I had ADHD from a young age but never did anything (or told me) about it because I still did "okay" in school. Little did she know that I struggled to listen to teachers, couldn't make eye contact with most people, could barely take notes, hyper-focused on unimportant details, and struggled in social situations; just to name a few things. This is actually why I got into reading in middle school, I couldn't make mistakes if I was reading a book.
    QUICK NOTE FOR PARENTS: please please please PLEASE tell your child if they are diagnosed with a mental disorder. Not telling them WILL LEAD to low self-esteem and negative thoughts about themselves. Think about it; If you are told over and over to not talk so much, to stop being over-dramatic and such, you are going to bottle your emotions up and isolate yourself. THIS IS BAD. HELP YOUR CHILD. They need support and keeping this a secret might lead to them thinking that you are ASHAMED of having a child with a mental disability. PLEASE take this into consideration.

    • L.P.
      L.P. 2 hari yang lalu +2

      Jeans are nice

    • Sunny Moon: will upload in 2022
      Sunny Moon: will upload in 2022 3 hari yang lalu +1

      @Chickennuggetpaw 469 This comment tho- everyone calls me “the girl who’s afraid of pants” like, im not afraid of any pants except jeans and HOW THE FRIG ARE THEY COMFY PPL-

    • Chickennuggetpaw 469
      Chickennuggetpaw 469 3 hari yang lalu +2

      Seriously though jeans are so uncomfortable. I have no idea why everyone keeps telling me they’re comfy. You want comfy pants? Try leggings or sweatpants, not scratchy blue torture traps

    • when I think of a better title ill change it
      when I think of a better title ill change it 3 hari yang lalu +1

      IK RIGHT?!? for me it was the tags on the backs of shirts and people chewing. I still get passed when grandma gets my sister's potato chips. I literally was almost held back by my teacher from what I thought were just these dumb little mistakes like eating a cupcakes with the wrapper on it ect.

  • Nameless Navnløs
    Nameless Navnløs 8 jam yang lalu +1

    I've got anxiety of some sort (undiagnosed, just going off of my symptoms + research, but I will be trying to get a diagnosis ASAP along with whatever else I got going on!) and from my own research on Autism, I thought I could've been on the spectrum too for a short while. Nowadays I'm not so sure, but I consider myself a.. well, rabid, avid supporter of all who are on the spectrum, you're all beautiful, loved, and perfect just the way you are. Don't let what makes you, you be something you're ashamed of! No one can tell you who you should be or how you can act, that's for you to decide. ^-^ My sweet boyfriend, and several of my friends are on the spectrum like some of you. 💞 All the love and support to you guys, and you, Illy!

  • Bryan Johnstone
    Bryan Johnstone Hari Yang lalu

    I was diagnosed with ADD & ADHD as a young age, then a year ago I read up on Autism & took an online test ranking as high functioning. I still need to meet a professional (the pandemic has gotten in the way of that), but it would explains a lot. The thing I was most interested in was connecting with people who also need to study Psychology & Sociology just for basic human interaction, but there doesn't seem to be any way for other Autistic people too connect.

  • Bean Boi
    Bean Boi 4 jam yang lalu

    This video nearly made me cry. I’ve been fairly sure that I’m autistic for a while and this only helps confirm it. It made me think about all the times when I was a kid that similar situations and responses would happen to me. I always felt like I was broken or weird and I felt very alone.. but seeing this, seeing someone I respect share their own experience helps so much. I feel more comfort and a lot better knowing that I’m not broken, I’m just different and other people like me do exist.
    Thank you for this video Illy, it helped in ways you don’t even know 💙

  • Tyler Anderson
    Tyler Anderson Hari Yang lalu

    This hit me really hard I've been having old repressed memories come back and I remember how people treated me differently cause of my adhd and I was sent to the special Ed room all because I couldn't sit still labeling me different and it hurt and I cried and told tough it up and now after years of holding it in it hit me really hard now realizing it

  • Human Being 2.0
    Human Being 2.0 22 jam yang lalu

    Hey Illy! I've been trying to get my dad to take me to the doctor for a possible diagnosis but he still sees it as "your nonverbal 5year old little brother" stereotype I think this video met help since I shared 90% of the symptoms and got a 173-170 on 2 trys of the RAADS-R pre-diagnostic quiz. Thx for sharing ur experience and I'm always here for the chaos!

  • Drízzly
    Drízzly Hari Yang lalu +1

    I related to a lot of things in this video, and I’m starting to do some more research on autism, cause after this video I’m kinda believing I might be on the spectrum.

  • finalfursonavii
    finalfursonavii Hari Yang lalu

    Love this video thank u!!!! I'm coming to terms with my own autism, self diagnosed, because the healthcare system in the UK is based on criteria that is extremely poorly informed and the issues I experience may well be pinned onto the fact that I'm not "normal" in other ways as an adult, this being that I'm queer and trans...
    Many of my autistic friends support this, the system aggressively under diagnoses issues and people get hurt and eventually, I realised that listening to the gatekeeping others impose onto me isn't gonna help anyone, and self diagnosing is ok if it helps me come to terms with who I am and why I'm like this.
    So yeah... Thanks for sharing this sentiment (also gingers 4 life 😎)

  • mirror hour
    mirror hour 13 jam yang lalu

    i absolutely loved the references you made! and the overall message was really well implemented! thank you

  • Asher Doug
    Asher Doug 3 hari yang lalu +382

    I like that you put so many references to the Owl House and other shows into your videos. I also like that you make videos covering topics like this, that so many people seem to skirt around or take at face value. They legitimately help so many people. Thank you.

    • Super Sparerib
      Super Sparerib 2 hari yang lalu

      @Tim The Penguin Can I have timestamps? Here's young Eda in return: 6:39 And I think the blob at 7:51 is an abomination? Not sure lol. I already noticed Willow at 9:29 so don't need that one haha
      Edit: Nvm I found the rest at 9:44 plus Hooty, I *am* going to keep this comment up for people who are looking for timestamps

    • BirdsOnBread
      BirdsOnBread 3 hari yang lalu

      I loved seeing the Nahobino from SMT5 in an earlier video(I think it’s the bullying one?)

    • •Acè Øf Spàdès•
      •Acè Øf Spàdès• 3 hari yang lalu +1

      Me too

    • Andrew wood
      Andrew wood 3 hari yang lalu +1

      @Janakey 007 I mean can you blame her? Season 2B is so good 😊

    • Jok3r133
      Jok3r133 3 hari yang lalu +2

      when i noticed all the owl house characters i thought she was gonna add a tick at the end.

  • justyourlocalrat_
    justyourlocalrat_ 13 jam yang lalu

    Thank you for talking about autism so openly and positively on your platform. This was such a fun and relatable video to watch, it made me feel a huge sense of belonging and acceptance, and the animation as always is wonderful. Forever gonna use the "if I was a little boy would a mom use this experience to explain autism to her wide eyed child" thing every time I don't feel 'autistic enough.' Thank you for all the work you do!!

  • ˗ˏˋ Lemon Shark 彡🍮

    I so relate to people telling me I'm dramatic and sensitive, or I need to toughen up.
    And it's like it's only ok to be yourself as long as you're not being Autistic. But that is who I am, I can't just stop being Autistic, I can't change, but the world can.
    We shouldn't have to try and change ourselves the world should change for us. ^^

  • BHJ Films
    BHJ Films Hari Yang lalu

    I've been told I was but I never thought I was, myself. Everything you pointed out in the vid was exact with me to a T. Even garbage eyesight. I get super obsessed with litteral any intrest immediately and I go in phases. Right now it's lego stopmotion, youtube, gaming, my phone, art, animation, music.

  • Doob
    Doob 17 jam yang lalu

    I relate to a lot of things you’ve said in this video and recently I’ve purchased some good headphones and I’ve noticed my anxiety levels have gone down and I feel much more at ease when I’m around loud noises, I can just put on my headphones and I feel way better! I do have sensory issues and I fidget a lot when I’m bored or feel uneasy at school. I have no idea if I’m autistic or not but I would like to know more about it. Thanks for this info and I’m glad I watched this video. Have a good day! :))

  • Piciesticks
    Piciesticks 16 jam yang lalu

    I'm on the spectrum, I struggled a lot socially. Knowing other people can experience my struggles makes me a feel little less alone :)

  • AutisticallyQueer
    AutisticallyQueer Hari Yang lalu +1

    I'm autistic, and before I was diagnosed I bought it up by this one dude who said I couldn't be because, "I was too smart. " Also a lot of people said I couldn't be due to a stereotype.

  • B. C.
    B. C. 11 jam yang lalu +1

    I found out I was autistic at age 14 after I was trying to find pins to add to my pin collection (a hyperfixation) and found one around my house that was the now outdated autism ribbon (the one with the puzzle pieces). I asked my mom about it and she was like, "oh yeah you were diagnosed when you were two...but you're fine now." I wanted to know more since I never heard much about autism spectrum disorder until then, and I had just gotten my own laptop...so I researched for weeks on end.
    Additionally, I did a lot of recollecting and noticed how much my autism had really affected me. I didn't start speaking until i was over 2. I didn't make strong connections with my classmates until a year of knowing them (which is also hard cuz I moved schools a lot). I had a hyperfixation (still have it lol) with cats. I've been super good at math for years. I was AWFUL at being in groups. I was always the last person to get the joke. It was all making sense, but would it make any sense to my friends?
    As more time has progressed, I've still had trouble fitting in with a big community and classmates. I just left a friend group who I thought cared about me until they all started going out without me (and posting about it). I was taken advantage of by my ex and another guy friend. I am never without my noise-cancelling headphones, which frustrates my family. It's hard to manage my tone, so people think I'm being rude when I'm not. My brain is always active, which helps me a lot in academics, but not in terms of emotions. It's really hard to explain my situation, and I can't just tell people, "oh yeah I have autism so I do stuff like this" since people normally give me a weird look like, "okay..." then claim i'm not autistic. I'm talking with a counselor and I might ask to discuss autism in adults and how it might affect me as I become a sophomore in college.

  • Anvi
    Anvi Hari Yang lalu

    This video was great! I would have loved to hear a bit more on adhd (and yes, it’s definitely a hot dog /hj) because I’ve been noticing symptoms of it lately.

  • Platinum XYZ
    Platinum XYZ 3 hari yang lalu +226

    Hearing both about masking and mimicking how others acted, and even the "doing nothing" really resonated with me and my experience with ADHD and ASD. "Doing nothing" or just "acting normal", although might seem like a great thing to neurotypicals from the outside view, it's often not a happy state for that individual, and them acting "normal" is more a sign something is off, forced, or they are unhappy. I actually didn't even really realize that this was part of the condition. I just thought it was just me, and that I was crazy. This explains so many interactions and experiences I've had at school. Many people seem to be only accepting of one "normal way" to act. It is amazing to see how much you have learned about yourself in order to even be able to educate others like you so well! Finding out content creator I heavily look up to have a similar experience to me is something very special! If anyone like us is reading this I wish you all very well.

    • Platinum XYZ
      Platinum XYZ 3 hari yang lalu

      @Heiagam Pee excuse me? so you think this is all fake?

    • Platinum XYZ
      Platinum XYZ 3 hari yang lalu +1

      @🍌 Len Sam you're not bothering. it basically varies wildy per person. It's like saying "we went on a trip". That doesn't just mean one thing. When did you go on that trip? How long? Where to? There's so many possibilities you couldn't possibly consider "going on a trip" just one thing. same thing here

    • YG64
      YG64 3 hari yang lalu +2

      @🍌 Len Sam like the video said, it can depend. Sometimes it isn’t even a problem at all.

    • YG64
      YG64 3 hari yang lalu +4

      I’m autistic and can very much relate to mimicking others, specifically when I’m speak. I feel like often reuse verb cues, phrases, tones, etc. just because I can’t imagine anything that fits better.

  • Artisticmoon
    Artisticmoon Hari Yang lalu

    Oh my god, I completely relate to this, I'm on the spectrum and I've always been told in school that I'm super distracted in class or I talk too much and my school has done nothing about it and I have my grades coming tomorrow and I'm so scared that now I've just seen my autism as something that always gets in my way constantly

  • obscuremadness
    obscuremadness Hari Yang lalu

    the owl house characters in the background are ✨everything✨. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’ve had many similar experiences to this, and I’m glad to see it being talked about more. How “you don’t look autistic”. It seems absurd to me when as you said, it’s a spectrum.

  • rahxrahster
    rahxrahster 19 jam yang lalu

    When you mentioned jeans being itchy/uncomfy it's the first time I've ever heard of another person going through that. My caregivers forced me to wear them and then wondered why I was irritable so often while wearing them. Also, when you mentioned masking i thought [animated] you was gonna be off beat or fall. It might've been me projecting bc I surely would've fallen over.

  • tanishka ratheeskumar
    tanishka ratheeskumar 13 jam yang lalu

    I honestly can relate to these videos sooo much let's just take the time to appreciate how illymation makes these awesome vids for us!!!!!

  • Figgity Jones
    Figgity Jones 3 hari yang lalu +270

    I also recently realized I was on the spectrum. Even though I was literally told by my college counselor out of the blue on like my first day with her, it still took me like 4 years to finally get it because I just had so little understanding of what ASD is. Still learning more and more everyday 😊

    • 𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭
      𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 3 hari yang lalu

      Lol yeah!

    • Inês Costa
      Inês Costa 3 hari yang lalu

      I was also told recently about my diagnosis even tho I went to therapy as a toddler and I'm rooting for u.
      I hope u realize that for some reason you are living and that no matter what disorder you may have,you are worthy to experience your life to the fullest just like the other ppl
      btw thx for the positive comment,I wouldn't be able to write such a short but powerful comment

    • Diamond Kone
      Diamond Kone 3 hari yang lalu +2

      That's great to hear. Some signs may not be as obvious as we think, and we are still exploring everyday. I'm glad to see you're supporting yourself and not letting it get to you. Staying positive is sometimes the best medication, have a great day! :)

  • Gerard Montgomery
    Gerard Montgomery Hari Yang lalu

    As a 40 year old coming to realise I may be on the spectrum this brings back some memories. I've self diagnosed with some online tests that all suggest Asperger's but I've never actually gotten "officially" diagnosed. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety a bunch of years back and find the CBT for this helps me enough to cope.

  • ToriKat_96
    ToriKat_96 Hari Yang lalu +1

    It took living with my new roommate who has autism (I think she said it was Asperger's specifically, but I am not certain) to actually realize how differently people with the symptom are treated and its heart breaking. She is always wearing headphones, has to have her room a certain way, likes things clean and done a certain way, and admitted to me she was non verbal for years of her life. But she also has a job and is the most hardworking woman I know. It's sad to hear her talking about her interests only for her to stop and say, "oh sorry I'm talking so much I must be boring you". I really wish people were more understanding of others.--a fellow Atypical person